It's a.......Baby Update!

BOY!!!!! I'm having a lovely baby boy. I'm so happy. Seeing him yesterday was euphoric. I couldn't even blog or talk to someone normal cause the way I was feeling yesterday was beyond any feeling that I could even muster a word for. Hes getting so big and he's so lovely and I am just already won over and am ready for September so I can meet my little guy. But I don't think I've been happier or felt more fuller and I swear its like overnight this bump has been growing. I just had to let anyone who reads this blog to know I found out and he is a bouncing baby boy and healthy. I'm so in love with this baby its unreal.

Quick Update_ Kinda a baby one

So today at 11 or so I finally find out what the gender of my little baby is!!! I'm so excited I don't think I can contain it. Like everyone keeps saying that I haven't been excited enough but I've been containing it until these last few days. A lot of people are even telling me I'm not even pregnant, HA! That's a good one I really wonder why people say stupid shit like that. It has actually started to kinda bother me like, WHY, why would I lie about that. Why would I be buying things for the baby, why would I post anything If I was really faking. It's ridiculous. Then in the next couple weeks when I blow up into a blimp people are gonna look mighty, mighty stupid. But I've been trying to ignore my anger at ignorance and have been focused on staying happy and positive about this little baby and getting to know what it is. Like my belly is on full flutter mode right now and I should really, really eat some breakfast but instead here I sit fully showered updating this blog. So maybe I should go sustain my life force and get some food, oh and put some clothes on. But soon, soon I will know what my little peanut is.

Baby Update 1

So today i went to the OBGYN and had the best news I've probably had in a while. Well not best but pretty darn good thing. I got to see the baby! I never thought that would be happy seeing the baby but I was brought to tears.That little peanut was the most active little 11 1/2 week old even my mom and doc said they weren't surprised i'd been feeling light flutters. All in all today was the brightest day that i've had in a while. The only dimming thing to the day was I didnt really have someone else to marvel with yeah my mom was happy but its not the same as if the babies dad was there.I mean it isn't really my fault he felt that he wasnt ready for a serious relationship soon after I found out I was pregnant. Even though him and me dont have the best of relationships I still love this kid to death and would go through hell and back for my baby already. My love for this kid is the one thing i'm sure of. But I just wanted to give a baby update since I had one because I don't get them often and I don't really talk about the normal what everyone usually goes through stuff. Besides thats not what this blog is it's just stating things I experience,and as far as expectations today this was completely unexpected and as I watched my baby dance in my womb and it made me cry woth joy for the first time in my life I wa literally slapped with the scary, joyful, ever present situation I'm in and I loves every second of it.