It's a.......Baby Update!

BOY!!!!! I'm having a lovely baby boy. I'm so happy. Seeing him yesterday was euphoric. I couldn't even blog or talk to someone normal cause the way I was feeling yesterday was beyond any feeling that I could even muster a word for. Hes getting so big and he's so lovely and I am just already won over and am ready for September so I can meet my little guy. But I don't think I've been happier or felt more fuller and I swear its like overnight this bump has been growing. I just had to let anyone who reads this blog to know I found out and he is a bouncing baby boy and healthy. I'm so in love with this baby its unreal.

Quick Update_ Kinda a baby one

So today at 11 or so I finally find out what the gender of my little baby is!!! I'm so excited I don't think I can contain it. Like everyone keeps saying that I haven't been excited enough but I've been containing it until these last few days. A lot of people are even telling me I'm not even pregnant, HA! That's a good one I really wonder why people say stupid shit like that. It has actually started to kinda bother me like, WHY, why would I lie about that. Why would I be buying things for the baby, why would I post anything If I was really faking. It's ridiculous. Then in the next couple weeks when I blow up into a blimp people are gonna look mighty, mighty stupid. But I've been trying to ignore my anger at ignorance and have been focused on staying happy and positive about this little baby and getting to know what it is. Like my belly is on full flutter mode right now and I should really, really eat some breakfast but instead here I sit fully showered updating this blog. So maybe I should go sustain my life force and get some food, oh and put some clothes on. But soon, soon I will know what my little peanut is.

Almost a Month?!

Where has the time gone? With life getting in the way its almost been a month since I've posted. Luckily I finally have a laptop again and feel like I have a connection to the world again. Well that's beyond the access of a self phone. It is too difficult to blog from a phone even though I'd absolutely love to. But everything's been going good minus some small hiccups but what part of life doesn't have those. I might get to find out the gender of the baby Tuesday so that's exciting and I started back writing just to get my mind off the negative. But hopefully now that I have my computer back it won't be as hard to post because lord knows its a devil of a time to do it on the phone even though I had a couple of times. But that's all for now more another day.

Where Does the Time Go?

It never fails that I inevitably lose track of time. I'll be sitting in a room and thinking and realize all the things that I let slide for if not only a few days a week or so. I feel slow especially when it's routine things that I let slip past me. Lately I just haven't been feeling 100% and as a result I have been slacking in certain areas. But I've been trying! That had to count for something, right? Well I need to stop being so scattered brained and try focusing more for the sake of mine and everyone around me and the wisps of sanity still in the air I can grab and shove back into my ear. Well this was a quick update but I should have something better tomorrow.

Tonight's the Night!

For sleep! I know it's still kinda late to be heading to bed but it's earlier than what I've been going so baby steps. I haven't been able to sleep til i was exhausted and lately that's been dang near close to 6 am. But tonight is looking very promising and i can honestly say im happy to get a good night's rest. I don't know if it was the hours of shoving homework into my brain or the fact that i just didn't sleep as long but whatever it is im thankful. I'm having difficulty even just typing this. But i guess I'll have more of an update tomorrow i hope. Maybe i can tell you about my riveting story that I'm having difficulty focusing on. Or i could spare you the gory details. I guess we'll know tomorrow.

New phone

So today i had to buy a new phone. My dad was supposed to get it but i ended up having to use new laptop money for a new phone. But it's alright hopefully he decides that he can help with the laptop. And after i pay my friend back im putting the rest up for a good long while. So that's one worry out of the way for now which was a rather large stressor on my brain. A phone is important i was too skittish to go on a walk in this neighborhood because i have absolutely no faith in mankind to be concerned about my well being if i were to get attacked or something. Before I got pregnant that was no biggie considering i could at least defend myself without worrying about protecting my unborn child but this is a new ball park. So now i can go out and walk around and feel secure in the fact that i have a phone. I mean it's no gun but hey ill take it!

To Write! or..Not to Write

Yesterday I had that feeling of wanting to update the blog but just could never find the right words to fill into the blank spaces. I literally made 3 drafts with just titles no words or anything. So I decided best to just save the ideas then come back to it right? So when I logged in today and saw this title I decided, why not write on this, I did have writers block for a full day. It's rare that I am at a loss for words considering my insatiable need for someone to hear and understand me and my thoughts. I know not many people care but the thought that just maybe one person out there cares enough to look is pretty comforting. I think a lot, that's what I do and I don't always feel comfortable sharing certain thoughts or feelings with people. Well I would write more but it seems that some more spring cleaning and organizing is calling my name.